Vähe aega paljudeks asjadeks.

Kukkusin eile magama veidi peale kahte. Enne äravajumist mäletan, et kell oli 2.05. Ärkasin puhanuna ja olin unes kogenud pikka sündmustejada. Kell oli 2.20.

Oleks kogu elu nii.

Põrgu ON teised inimesed. What a wicked game.

The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do.
I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you.
And I never dreamed that I knew somebody like you.

No, I don't want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
No, I don't want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
With you. With you. (This world is only gonna break your heart)

What a wicked game to play, to make me feel this way.
What a wicked thing to do, to let me dream of you.
What a wicked thing to say, you never felt this way.
What a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you and,

I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
No, I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
With you.

The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do.
I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you.
And I never dreamed that I'd loose somebody like you no,

No, I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
No, I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
With you. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
With you. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
No, I... (This world is only gonna break your heart)
(This world is only gonna break your heart)

Nobody loves no one.

"I chase my vinyl dreams to boogie wonderland"

Dance boogie wonderland
Dance boogie wonderland
Midnight creeps so slowly into hearts,
Of men who need more than they get
Daylight deals a bad hand,
To a woman that has laid to many bets

The mirror stares you in the face and says
Baby, uh uh it dont work
You say your prayers through you dont care
You dance and shake the hurt
Dance boogie wonderland
Dance boogie wonderland

Sound fly through the night
I chase my vinyl dreams to boogie wonderland
I find romance when I start to dance in boogie wonderland
I find romance when I start to dance in boogie wonderland

All the love in the world cant be gone
All the need to be loved cant be wrong
All the records are playing
And my heart keeps saying
Boogie wonderland, wonderland
Dance boogie wonderland
Dance boogie wonderland

All the love in the world cant be gone
All the need to be loved cant be wrong
All the records are playing
And my heart keeps saying
Boogie wonderland, wonderland
Dance boogie wonderland
Dance boogie wonderland

Norah Jones - Thinking About You

Yesterday I saw the sun shinin',
And the leaves were fallin' down softly,
My cold hands needed a warm, warm touch,
And I was thinkin' about you.

Here I am lookin' for signs to lead me,
You hold my hand, but do you really need me?
I guess it's time for me to let you go,
But I'll be thinkin' about you,
I'll be thinkin' about you.

When you sail across the ocean waters,
And you reach the other side safely,
Could you smile a little smile for me?
'cause I'll be thinkin' about you,
I'll be thinkin' about you,
I'll be thinkin' about you,
I'll be thinkin' about you...


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Võibolla peaksin ma ütlema midagi rohkemat, kui need laulud, mis siia olen postitanud, aga pole ju mõtet, kui need räägivad enda eest...

Heart - All I Wanna Do Is Make Love To You

It was a rainy night when he came into sight
Standing by the road
no umbrella
no coat
So I pulled up along side and I offered him a ride
He accepted with a smile so we drove for a while
I didn't ask him his name
this lonely boy in the rain
Fate tell me it's right
is this love at first sight
Please don't make it wrong
just stay for the night

All I wanna do is make love to you
Say you will
You want me too
All I wanna do is make love to you
I've got loving arms to hold on too

So we found this hotel
it was a place I knew well
We made magic that night. Oh
he did everything right
He brought the woman out of me
so many times
easily
And in the morning when he woke all I let him was a note
I told him 'I am the flower you are the seed'
We walked in the garden we planted a tree
Don't try to find me
please don't you dare
Just live in my memory
you 'll always be there

All I wanna do is make love to you
One night of love was all we knew
All I wanna do is make love to you
I've got loving arms to hold on too

Oh
oooh
we made love
Love like strangers
All night long
We made love

Then it happened one day
we came round the same way
You can imagine his surprise when he saw his own eyes
I said 'please
please understand
I'm in love with another man
And what he couldn't give me
was the one little thing you can'

All I wanna do is make love to you
One night of love was all we knew
All I want to do is make love to you
Come on
say you will
you want me too

All I wanna do is make love to you
One night of love was all we knew
All I want to do is make love to you
Say you will
you want me to

All night long
All night long

All night long
All night long.

Macy Gray - I try

Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I belive that fate has brought us here
And we should be together babe
But were not
I play it off, but Im dreaming of you
And Ill try to keep my cool, but Im feenin

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, its clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, its clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

I may appear to be free
But Im just a prisoner of your love
And I may seem all right and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front
Just a front, hey
I play it off, but Im dreaming of you
And Ill try to keep my cool, but Im feenin

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, its clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, its clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

Here is my confession
May I be your possession
Boy, I need your touch
Your love, kisses and such
With all my might I try
But this I cant deny
Deny

I play it off, but Im dreaming of you
(but Im dreaming of you babe)
And Ill keep my cool, but Im feenin

I try to say goodbye and I choke (yeah)
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide, its clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not near aahh)
Goodbye and I choke (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I try to walk away and I stumble (hey, hey, hey)
Though I try to hide it, its clear (say it lord)
My world crumbles when you are not here

Goodbye and I choke (Im choking)
I try to walk away and I stumbe
Though I try to hide it, its clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not near, yeah, yeah yeah)
Yeah, yeah..

Remont.

Jah, see on see, mida paljud asjad ja ka inimesed vajavad.

Asjadega on muidugi lihtne - paned uue krohvi peale, võibolla vahetad tapeedi välja, mõnikord peab ka midagi lõhkuma, et parandused parema al(g)use saaks. Kindlasti tuleb millestki loobuda, aga teadmine, et asemele saab uus ja parem, teeb kõik kergemaks. Ja nii käibki.

Mitte inimestega though, neil käib asi teisiti. Halvad ja vanad omadused on ometigi liiga visad kaduma. Käitumismallid. Mõtlemine. Eelarvamused. Hirm. See on see, mis püsib, remondita. Ja sellest hoitakse kümne küünega kinni.

Ammusest ajast kummitab üks aforism: "Täiuslikkus saavutatakse, mitte kui pole enam midagi lisada, vaid kui pole enam midagi ära võtta". Kui kohutav! Loobuda kõigest täiuslikkuse nimel? Pigem ahmime kõike, mis käeulatuses on. Peaksime rohkem ära andma, elama. Aga see on inimloomusega vastuolus ja nii läheme täpselt samamoodi edasi, et mitte öelda - tagasi.

Ja kes olen mina seda rääkimaks? Kes oled sina seda lugemaks? Kas ma üldse olen? Ja sina?

Me oleme ära hirmutatud. Kardame muutuda. Kardan. Kardad. Ja üldse, meie hirmud on eneselegi märkamatult nii suured, et kaob inimlikkus, nagu ütleb Bertrand Russell: 'Neither a man nor a crowd nor a nation can be trusted to act humanely or to think sanely under the influence of a great fear.'

Ja Hirm elab edasi ka peale meid, kui remonti ei tehta.

It's all in our heads.

Meist jäi päiksest
närit' pilvede ja
vihmast liiga halli
hämarduva õhtu sisse
õhku palju pilvi
(suitsetame igavusest,
või kuna teadjad
lihtsalt teevad nii)
pahvakuid ja klirinat
ent tassidel on ikka
kõrvad küljes
põhjas kohvitilk,
elule üks liiga
selge pilk...

Shuffle-nali, eesti-made.

Pane kõik laulud ühte nimekirja mängima. Noh, tead küll. Ja siis tee seda “Shuffle” trikki. Ja iga küsimuse vastuseks kirjuta üks laul. Kirjuta see laul, mis parajasti tuleb.

Esmaspäeva laul: Alanis Morrissette - Thank You
Teisipäeva laul: Billy Joel - Big Shot
Kolmapäeva laul: Silencer - Death, Pierce Me /wooh, tavaliselt kolmapäev ongi just nii masendav höhöhö: Rip My Throat, Drink My Blood, Strangle Me, Drown Me, Give Me Vain And Give Me Pain, Knives Running Through Me, Oh, Master Of Wounds - Cut Me Chase Me, Waste Me, Leave Me In Your Arms Cold Hands, Fingers Like Razors, Break My Neck, Put Out My Light, Crush My Hope, Rape My Life Cut Me, Hurt Me, Cut Me, Hurt Me... Cut Me, Cut Me, Cut Me, Cut Me, Take My Life, Kill Me And Kill Me (and...) I Am What You Deserve, Death Do Me Submerge /
Neljapäeva laul: Pink Floyd - Don't Leave Me Now
Reede laul: Joseph Arthur - In The Sun / mmm!/
Laupäeva laul: James Talley - Streamline Flyer
Pühapäevane pala: The Fray - Trust Me

Kevadhitt: Fiction Factory - Feels Like Heaven
Suvehitt: Ursula - Tuttava Katsumise Mõnus Surin
Sügishitt: Alsu - Ja I Tõ
Talvehitt: Neffa - Prima Di Andare Via

Hommikune äratus: Red Hot Chili Peppers - This Is The Place
Hommikusöögi saatemuusika: Snow Patrol - Somewhere A Clock Is Ticking (I Could Do Most Anything To You)
Mineku muusika: Marilyn Manson - Cake And Sodomy
Töö (kooli) muusika: Genialistid - Mina ka!
Lõunapausiaegne lõõgastus: Joseph Arthur - Let's Embrace
Pärastlõuna palake: Seal - Kiss From A Rose
Kojumineku laul: Queen - You Don't Fool Me
Õdus õhtumuusika: The Fray - How To Save A Life
Unelaul: Pink Floyd - Another Brick In The Wall, Pt. 2 / "we don't need no education!" see mulle sobiks!/
Öömuusika: RHCP - Blood Sugar Sex Magic / nice! :D/

Raske on kaotada lootusetust.

Millegipärast mul õnnestub see ikka ja jälle. Samas - kui poleks halbu ja veel halvemaid hetki, siis võiks lausa uskuma jääda, et häid hetki polegi. Hetkel tundub, et halvad on peaaegu head veel halvemate kõrval.

Tegelikult võibolla polegi asi nii lootusetu. Ma lihtsalt ei suuda ennast kokku võtta, et neid võlgu likvideerida, aga õnneks on mul sund taga - kellegi teise ja enda tuleviku pärast. Ma ju tahan Viljandisse tööle. Loodetavasti, pole asi nii lootusetus seisus, et enam ei anna muud peale aka võtmise teha. Ma isegi ei muretse enam endast jääva mulje pärast koolis, sest seal on nagunii enamus läbi. Või noh - natuke ikka põen. Aga kõik nagunii teavad, et ma olen boheem ja lohe. Siiani on nad mind lohistanud. Edasi pean ise, nagu öeldi. Karm. KaRm.

2 tunni pärast on kvaliteedi tagamise eksam. Ma olen tükk aega juba ekraani põrnitsenud. Kvaliteet on määr, milleni olemuslike karakteristikute kogum täidab nõuded [märkus: terminit “kvaliteet” saab kasutada koos omadussõnadega nagu halb, hea või suurepärane]. Mjah, suurepärane!

Etsiis, palju õnne. Palju õnne, ma ütlen! Suicide Bunny lohutab!

...aga unenäod kinnisideest ja mu õest teineteisele väga lähedal minu trotsiks ei aita ka eriti. Fakaa!

Fa-fa-fa, and will you take fries with that, M'am?

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button

Opening Credits: Brian Tyler feat Slash – Mustang Nismo (The Fast And The Furious – Tokyo Drift Soundtrack)

Falling in love: Ursula - Heiki

Sex Scene: Queen – Don’t Stop Me Now

Breaking Up: Soggy Bottom Boys feat Dan Tyminski - I Am A Man Of Constant Sorrow

Life's OK: DJ Shadow ft Mos Def – Six Days (The Fast And The Furious – Tokyo Drift Soundtrack)

Mental Breakdown: Red Hot Chili Peppers – True Men Don’t Kill Coyotes

Driving: Genialistid ja Lea Liitmaa – Leekiv armastus

Final Battle: Mewithoutyou – Dying Is Strange And Hard

Death Scene: Johnny Cash - Hurt

Funeral Scene: Pink Floyd – In The Flesh?

End Credits: Billy Joel – Piano Man

[Tühjus]

Ma enam ei kirjuta mõistuse järgi
sest sõrmed on lähemal
mu silmis on silmis on tühjus
viimasel korral kui läksin
siis kurvalt jäi miski neist välja
ehk leian kord tükkhaaval üles
need uned, kus uni on hea
hommikul on ikka veel hommiku maitse
ärgates ärkama kui pean
naha peal naeratuslohk

Jeeses, ma olen idioot!

[Võõrsõnad]

See oli kartus peale pikka päeva, et midagi ei muutu
või et midagi muutub.
Ja midagi muutuski.
Mu hullusetoas nihutati mõtteid,
võeti nad karbi seest voodi alt,
pühiti tolmust ja pandi aknale.
Kuigi on külm, minul liigagi soe,
näed - liblikad lendavad taskus.
Kas tead? Ma ei tee enam vahet,
kas minu on sinu või jaa.

Joseph Arthur - You've Been Loved

Ületamatult kehva kõlaga, aga ikkagi hea.

"Suudlen Sind ainult, sest Su süljes on veel natuke kohvi"

Eelnev nädal oli põrgu. Päädis avastusega pühapäeval, et järgmisel päeval on eksam. Õnneks olin praksis saanud personaalse seletuse. Tulemusi veel ei tea.

Üldse on mind rumal rahutus vallanud. Tahaks kõik kuradile saata, sest ma ei saa enam millestki aru. Kas tõesti inimesed ei saa ka ise absoluutselt endist aru? Oeah. Mu ema on küll alati öelnud, et "käituge mu sõnade, mitte tegude järgi". See, mis toimub, ei käi isegi mitte selle absurdsuse järgi, vaid kõrgelt ja kaugelt üle kõige loogilise ja ma suren vaikselt seespidiselt. See, mida peaksin üritama unustada, võtab mind seestpoolt üle. Ja see kõik võib olla lihtsalt mäng. Või ärakasutamine. Mõlematpidi Valus. Tahaksin kohvipurusse uskuda. Võiks ju olla midagi, millele loota... Aga ei.

"Some say we are responsible for those we love. Others know we are responsible for those who love us."

Dennis Leary - Asshole

Chosen One : The Collection Of My Life

1. Marilyn Manson - Cake & Sodomy
2. Aerosmith - Ain't That A Bitch
3. Cardigans - My Favourite Game
4. Cardigans - Erase And Rewind
5. Garbage - Sex is Not The Enemy
6. Nine Inch Nails - Closer
7. Scissor Sisters - Laura
8. Red Hot Chilli Peppers - On Mercury
9. Queen - Don't Stop Me Now
10. Katrina & The Waves - Walking On Sunshine
11. Neffa - Prima Di Andare Via
12. Jovanotti - Bella
13. The Clash - Should I Stay Or Should I Go
14. Panic!At The Disco - Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off
15. Duran Duran - Reach Up For the Sunrise
16. Bob Schneider - Big Blue Sea
17. The Steve Miller Band - Joker
18. Shakira - Poem To A Horse
19. The Verve - Bittersweet Symphony
20. Alanis Morrissette - Ironic

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Tulemas - Chosen Too : The Collection Of My Life

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Kokku valisin välja 41 lugu, teine kogumik pole veel päris valmis ja arv võib kõikuda. Aga kõik valitud on need, mis omavad suurt tähendust, kinnitavad minevikku või mille mädsik lihtsalt pähe hakkas.

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Tänase päeva lugu:

/ Alanis Morrissette - Ironic /


An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
Isn't it ironic ... don't you think
Chorus

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought ... it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids good-bye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
'Well isn't this nice...'
And isn't it ironic ... don't you think
Repeat Chorus


Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

It's a traffic jam when you're already late
It's a no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic... don't you think
A little too ironic... and yeah I really do think...
Repeat Chorus


Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

"Hello! My name-a Borat! I don't feel to care much of your question! This would be because I have list of stock response to all query! Haha! You listen! I dislike the Jews! Barbara Bush look like old man! I say word for genitals in unexpect ways and then mention sex! Then I say is nice or hi-five after saying this! Also I sometimes imply incest to people who might be offend by this! This called "sharp social satire". Now I fart! Haha! Why yes, I do love money, I thank you very much! Great success!"


www.somethingawful.com

Sexy-time, high-five!

Käisin siis ka lõpuks seda Borati kultuurifilmi vaatamas. Einojah, iseenesest selline nilbe, aga kuradi naljakalt nilbe. Ja kui inimene tahab ennast ja teisi lolliks teha, siis palun väga. Peaasi, et nalja saab.

Peaasi, et selgeks saab, on üks teine põhimõte. Ma ei kannatanud enam ja "made a verbal explosion". Sain ka vastureaktsiooni, suhteliselt kaalutletu, niiet mul on kerge seda uskuda. Esimene šokk kestis ainult pool tundi, siis sain aru, et tegelikult see vastus ongi lihtsam, isegi kui miski minus veidi ikka veel ei usu, kogu seda asja. Njah, saan hakkama. Olen ju tubli. Aga loomulikult kardan ma bitšiks muutuda, sest kuskilt läheb ju kannatuste piir. Ma ei taha tegelt teada, kui paljudele ma oma valede inimeste obsessimistega haiget olen teinud. Selles mõttes ma ju ei olegi hea. Ainult head on ära teeninud õnne. Ma olen suutnud ennast veenda.

Illusion eile oli punkt i'l. Mul on hea.